Dearest

Dearest, I feel certain that I am going mad again. I feel we can't go through another of those terrible times. And I shan't recover this time. I begin to hear voices, and I can't concentrate. So I am doing what seems the best thing to do. You have given me the greatest possible happiness. You have been in every way all that anyone could be. I don't think two people could have been happier 'til this terrible disease came. I can't fight any longer. I know that I am spoiling your life, that without me you could work. And you will I know. You see I can't even write this properly. I can't read. What I want to say is I owe all the happiness of my life to you. You have been entirely patient with me and incredibly good. I want to say that – everybody knows it. If anybody could have saved me it would have been you. Everything has gone from me but the certainty of your goodness. I can't go on spoiling your life any longer. I don't think two people could have been happier than we have been.

jojoushi

The words that we sing make a pleasant melody

All I need is you by my side

If there are birds who haven't lost their smiling eyes

If you can't see the shining of the stars at night

You quietly relieve me

Even of the sad memories that I have left

I missed being blown on by the gentle wind, like playing

You who are vivid and fluttering, snatch me away

The season changes color, how many times have we changed color with it?

My feelings are like an unwilted flower

If this is a dream, then I don't care

Overflowing with the radiance of love, it colors my heart

I'm always thinking of you

I'm wrapped in you, as though you were sunbeams streaming through the leaves

That is my strong and unchanging vow

If this is a dream, then I don't care

The love to you is alive in me everyday

originally written by :  Ogawa Tetsuya

the dream at ocean avenue

people called it ocean avenue and one day i will end up there.

and have a beach house just like this.

and a Pagani Zonda F roadster as a ride.

and you, wherever you are now. i'll find you.

a smile that go away

 

i have a lot of blank pages but there is no word can describe you completely.

you are way to amazing and there is nothing similar to you.

you are my inspiration, my passion, my mood.

My thoughts are free to go anywhere.

but it's surprising how often they head in your direction.

       I like you because your smiles at me and means it. 

and now i really miss your smile

could be worse

" because life is an option, there is always an option for everything, it's your decision to love or hate somebody

it's also your decision to become a cheater or the honest one." my father told me about it.

" don't be a cheater, it's not the reason i raised you " my mother told me about it, and it's also the reason why she raised me as her son.

" we're still young, don't you take it so hard " my best friend told me about it, and his right we are young but i told to him that we also not stupid.

"  Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option " kagome told me about this, she got it from her own experience

" i have made my decision, i'll tell her the truth,altough i know that the truth is so painfully and have a power to crush her " my decision after stay awake for 28 hours

and what is the result of being honest....  you'll become a jerk, an asshole who chose to have a better life without a lie at your heart.... 

still it could be worse....

smoke

smokers never grow old, because they die young

the art of driving

the power over

the counter-steering

the "Dog Fight" 

it's not just cornering, it's an art..